Adara Qudsiyah con It was at an audition and I was teaching dance. He came with a friend and it was the third time I saw him. And, I must say, I had a drink or two : something ... He could hardly talk. He (Galician Edition)
I wasn’t feeling turned on at all. It was almost like I should be doing this even though I don’t really want to be doing it. There’s some feeling. I can touch my hand and it feels okay. And so I was touching my clit and it felt okay. But it wasn’t anything. No feeling of excitement. Nothing built up. I bought the other book, Nancy Friday’s other book, brought it home, I read it and it was just like reading the newspaper. It didn’t turn me on. And I’m beginning to wonder if I should just get myself in places and in situations that are a little bizarre and it might get me a little bit excited because a physical touch does not do anything. When I use the vibrator I feel nothing, then I feel the pain. And with my finger, I don’t feel any pain. I cannot comprehend how someone could have an orgasm masturbating. I don’t understand. My body is not allowing it. And so it is just continual frustration.
Therapist: Anybody have any ideas?
Beverly: The other day you brought up slower touching, when you had more sensation.
Pamela: Yeah, I do like a slow movement. I like it. It is a nice feeling. That’s all it is. It’s no more pleasure than touching myself anywhere else. It’s just there. I just happen to be touching it, that’s all.
Josephine: When you went to that bookstore and were reading that book, what was different about that?
Pamela: It was an excitement, a tingle. I felt it in my arms.