Life of a human being reminds us of a train traveling with one looking through the last window of the last car. Everything one sees through this window appears to be departing. It appears that you are constantly loosing what you have, being in a state of dying and sorrow about what is left behind.
In such a case, life is an attempt to hold on to what is departing. It’s an endless fight with death. But is this a life or a prolonged experience of death?
Life is one side of a coin, while death is another side of it. How can one live on one side of a coin? Is this life? Do we allow death into our life? Do we consider it to be best not to think about it at all? That’s what we are going to discuss today.
Is there life after death?
What are people afraid of more than anything? What do their fears boil down to? The fears of the personality boil down to losing the habitual image of itself, while fears of the body boil down to its loss or mutilation. A human being is afraid to lose his body because of the fear that with one’s body one would lose one’s life. If in this reality, I identify myself with a body, I am afraid of illnesses, mutilation, and death.
From such a position, Soul is something abstract, and one’s relationship to it is very different. One relates to it as if it was a virgin, virginity of which one is afraid to lose. Another considers it to be something that Satan can drag to hell. For many people, Soul is something abstract. No one knows where it is as opposed to a body which creates a real reality. But what are we in reality?
If I identify myself with a body, I understand that sooner or later my body will die. Everyone knows that it is impossible to avoid the death of the body. Very rich people are ready to freeze the body to prolong its life. Why do they do it? They do it because they don’t have the answer to the question: «Who am I? ». If I am the body, sooner or later I am going to die. That is the thought we live with.
— My mother told me yesterday that she did not live her life well, her youth is gone, and her life is over.
— Life did not go well, and the only thing that remains is to bring up the children and to die. Look, this is a real reality. That’s how people live. If one perceives life in such a way, and your mother perceives it exactly this way, that’s her life. The way we perceive life is the life we have.
The majority of people consider that life is a period of time to be used to grab as much as possible, to fulfil a certain program, and to die. What’s after death is unknown. There is a real reality, and there is a house in it, kids that scream, husband I can never find common grounds with, and a collection of problems I run around like crazy with; then—death.
And what is death? Life is one side of a coin, and death is the other side. Most people only grab one side of it and are afraid of the other. Do we allow the presence of death into our life or we simply know that this is something that will happen one day and our body will go, not knowing what is going to happen next? What is your relationship to death?
— There is no fear in my case.
— Do you want to die, do not want to die, or you don’t care? If you don’t care, I will ask you to jump from this ninth story window.
— I probably will not jump now.
— If you don’t care, why not jump now?
— Some things still hold me here.
— It turns out, that when you stand at the end of a cliff, there is something that holds you.
— I am sure my life will change.
— What is holding you: past or future?
— Future. Past does not hold me at all.
— Do you know your future that you say is holding you?
— I can presume.
— You can presume the future, but you know the past for a fact. Am I right?
— I know it for a fact.
— So, what is holding you: what you can presume or what you already know?
— What I know for a fact does not hold me at all.
— Then jump.
— But I do have a future.
— That is your future. You are going to fly. Is that what you wanted? You will fly all the way down to the ground. Look how interesting it is. We have so many thoughts and ideas we are not even aware of. We only become aware of them when we stand at the end of a cliff.
Now, it is understandable why one needs to get to the edge of a cliff. I turns out, one is not aware of anything when one is far from the edge. It’s only by getting to the edge that one can understand one’s relationship with death. And what is after so called death? Do you have any ideas on the subject?
— It is life of a Spirit.
— And who are you?
— I am a part of this big Spirit.
— So, why not transfer to this Spirit right now? We are studying spiritual development here. We just figured out that the easiest way to transfer to Spirit is to die. We are preoccupied and suffering with this body, but turns out one can jump out of a window and transfer to Spirit right away. That’s the «extreme» way of spiritual development.
— The spirit is not developed. It’s weak.
— Whose spirit is weak? Yours?
— Not mine. I mean in general.
— I talk about you, and you talk about transferring to Spirit. I am trying to figure out what Spirit is. You are saying that this is something big, but now it turns out that in your case it is weak.
— It came here to get a certain experience. It did not acquire the entire experience yet.
— So, if you were to die now, your Spirit would not acquire a full experience and would cry. So who are you? You are the body that is going to die and a Spirit that has to accomplish something here, and at present time you do not yet understand what it needs to accomplish.
If you are the body, then with a death of the body you are not going to exist. But if, as you say, you are Spirit, you should experience yourself as immortal. Do you experience yourself as such?
Experiencing yourself as a Spirit, and a Soul allows you to change images of yourself and decorations of your life without losing yourself or dying. Spirit is something that can experience itself in different images and bodies, not losing the sensation of life, but using death to transform to another image of itself.
So, do you allow death into your life? Does your life happen to be real life or an extended experience of death? What is your life: experiencing dying or experiencing birth?
Recall images of yourself that you had in the past. Recall images from your adolescence. How did your images of yourself change with time? Do you see it as birth or loss?
What kind of an image of yourself do you have now? While being a worker, how do you experience death of the image of an employee and transfer to the image of an unemployed? Do you see continuation of life in the image of an unemployed or are you upset about the death of an employee, i.e. are you upset experiencing death?
Written by Dr. Emin Kuliev